Hey guys, Its me- Just so this doesnt get lost in the shuffle Im writing it here- no ai help, no softening, nothing, these are my words and my thoughts.

I'm still on my break but I needed to get this off my chest. And I wanna preface this with Im not calling anyone out, not mad at anyone- No one is on my hit list and im not trying to upset anyone with this- these are just how im feeling and Im just being honest with things and where we're going from here-.

So. I dont even know where to start.. I really wanna skip ahead but I wont. this might be long as I tend to ramble- but I appreciate how much you all do read if you read it.

Anyway. As you all know I've been working on Feral since last august. It was a passion project to do something different than most pets sites were doing. I wanted it to be hard.. more strategic more of.. what pet sites werent doing where everything is sunshine and rainbows I wanted danger I wanted.. death.. I wanted consequences.. I wanted...you to have to think about your choices.. this isnt a kids game.

The version I started with was too simple. way too simple but it let me know I could do it. I COULD do something. So I spent a month and a half completely redoing it all. ALL of it. I added so many new features I made webs where so much connected I worked so F*ing hard. I tried.. I tried so hard.

And I was proud of it- I was excited to give you all this new version to show you- to get feedback- to have you tell me what I needed to tweak to fix, to change, to make easier for you guys to work with cuz I knew it needed work (Its why it isnt released after all it needs alot of work) but I got nothing.. no feedback. No one said anything- I tried to fiind stuff by myself and fix things on my own- while working on other things- but I cant do it on my own. I cant. I cant find everything- and to me everything is navigational cuz I know where it all is and I know how to do everything. so I really need that outside input.. I need to be told. I know I do.. but I got nothing.

and It wasnt that I was complacent. I was waiting to be told hey can we work on this or fix this? And yes some of it was of course getting used to the new site- cuz it was alot different. But other things definately needed to be addressed, But they werent... or they were- I mentioned a possible reason- nothing was mentioned again so I assumed they worked themselves out. This is possibly my fault but also.. I need words.. Feedback is important for games I didnt get it..

but then I got one. that Hurt- one that hurt on a day where I was already having a sort of overwhelming, bad kinda day..
(not exact words but basically)

"Its unplayable and not fun"

And It hurt.. and I had to leave.. I left for a while. I went and cried in my life partners arms for a while- how can I fix things if no one tells me what to fix? I know the site needs work.. I know it. but yea it hurt alot. I wont lie.. and Im not trying to sound dramatic.. or sound like I want your pity I dont want it. Im just explaining my reasoning for dissapearing and taking a break. It wasnt just this comment- it was an entirety of.. I need to step back. I need to just.. step back 100%. think about it. reorder it all. And think harder on everything.. Try harder to make Feral work BETTER.

BUT I DONT KNOW HOW YET.

So im trying.. Im taking my time.. and I want it to be amazing.. but it will take work.. it will take figuring, fixing and tweaking.. it will not be perfect first go or even second..

Anyway...thanks for reading.
Love you guys.
~Ittermat